Originally published on the blog I started for my bookkeeping biz, but in my heart, this post belongs here at My Remembering Place! So here it is. ๐Ÿ™‚

I'm still not 100% certain that I want to be doing this.  But I'm going to do it anyway.

I'm starting a blog.

This morning I read this tweet:

"When inspiration comes you don't send it to
voicemail. You answer the phone and have a conversation with it."
Will.I.Am

– Susan (@FeedTheSoul)

And that was it. I realized I have to stop planning on starting my blog and just start the darn thing.  Because while I'm in planning mode, all of my great blog post ideas are being sent to voicemail and I'm not very good about listening to old messages.  So.  Here I am.

I must share that I really have no idea what I'll be doing here.

I do know that I'm not going to hold myself up to some perfectionist's standard because if I do, I'll never post a single thing.  Heck, I'm definitely diving deeply into the not doing it perfectly approach because that graphic up there? It isn't exactly centered and when I saved it in Paint (yes, Paint!) it got a little pixelated.

And I'm not sure, but I'm guessing that there's some rule against using TypePad to blog professionally.  But maybe not.  Either way, I really don't care.  I've had this bookkeeping.typepad.com domain for YEARS and I've practically never even used it.  So I'm going for it.

What it is exactly, I'm still not sure.  I'm thinking this blog will be part business diary, part "Dear Abby" if folks are kind enough to ask me questions along the way, and part who knows what!

I think I'm partially unsure how to do this whole blogging-as-a-business-owner thing because I used to have a fairly well-read online journal years ago (it even won an award at one point!) and I'm not entirely sure how to show up here without mixing personal with business. 

Back then I'd just open up my web browser, click the new entry button, and start pouring my heart out into words.  I knew the world was reading and I was totally okay with that.  I wasn't afraid of what people might think or say.  I wasn't worried about saying too much or saying the wrong thing.  But that blog was not in any way, shape, or form tied to my livelihood.  The risks didn't feel all that risky to me.

But, I really want to be here, so I've decided I'm going to do what I do in my "real" life.  I'm going to show up fully, just as I am, allowing you to see me however I am in the moment.  I'm going to write what comes from my heart and I'm going to try to write often.

You see, the other day, after reading Havi's post about someone believing in me when it seemed like no one else did and I didnรขโ‚ฌโ„ขt know how to believe in myself all I could hear was that little voice within me encouraging me.  The voice insisted on reminding me that quite a few people have either encouraged me to start this blog, or they've outright stated that they would support me in doing so.  Listening to The Voice was giving me strength to DO IT ALREADY.

I needed to let go of my concerns about this site's design not matching my main business website's design
(which is in the process of being overhauled right now anyway).  I
don't know if I have an RSS feed and I haven't signed up for the
Feedburner "subscription" thing yet either.

But I'm going for it.

I was really touched when I asked Stacy Brice
for help with this blog (when it was still just an idea, a concept, a
possibility) and she not only said YES, but she also went on to write
her own blog post about how something I'd said helped her.
I think it was in that moment, realizing that I could help more people
just by writing about the things I usually say to people, that I knew I
would have to push myself into starting this blog.

And Mark Silver – someone I love dearly and have been working closely with for over a year now – has helped me to realize that some of the things I do and think as naturally as breathing are actually things that people would love to hear about and hear about from me.  So in many ways, this blog is my first step into sharing more of those things that are just within me, the things I don't realize I share so naturally in conversation, the things that people say to me after I say them, "Wow – no one's ever said it like that before! Now I get it! Thank you!"

I just have to remind myself that people actually want to hear what I have to say even though to me, it's just obvious.  The last thing I want to do is hold back the help I have to offer.  So if blogging makes me a little more vulnerable but leads to a magnification of my ability to help others – then all the vulnerability in the world is worth it.

Since I started doing  Shiva Nata, I've been having all these ideas of things I could post here, just like Havi said I would.  So that's why I'm here.  I'm moving past my fears, taking an imperfect step, and starting this blog because I really just want to be able to help more people.

I've got stuff to share about that thing I do in the world, helping small business owners who love what they do, but can't keep up with the numbers side of their biz. 

For me, starting this blog is like deciding to get pregnant, which I did for the first time just a little under five years ago.  It's like deciding to start my own business, which I did just over three years ago.  It's like saying yes when I was asked that big question: "Will you marry me?"

Because, just like those times, I really have no idea how this is going to turn out, but I love you enough to say yes to the idea.  I love the idea of you–someone who enjoys reading what I write and perhaps finds something I say to be helpful–enough to dive in with both feet and just go for it.

So here I am. 

And if I get stuck, maybe you can help me?  All you'd have to do is ask me a question about something you want to know about business, managing money in business, how to benefit from bookkeeping, or anything at all about life or business in general.

Because I'd be happy to answer your questions, right here, on my brand-spanking-new blog!